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The writer of this letter has made me very aware that bisexuality has as much right to exist and be recognised as my desire to be recognised as being gay, or for that matter, for whatever sexual orientation a person has, or this I shall be grateful that he wrote so openly to me.The Positively Alive website site and the group meetings proved to be invaluable in my journey.Alas, there have been more guys than girls, but for some reason I keep “relapsing” (hahaha) on women.My partner knows my status and my sexual orientation, she's negative and straight (but that’s beside the point).The huge mental and emotional impact that HIV has on someone is most probably the greatest of all challenges.
I have only been able to tell one family member so far.
To be attracted to both sexes is quite widely thought of as unusual / odd, etc.
often even more so than coming out / labelling yourself as gay.
I have had girlfriends in the past and now I have one again.
Being with a woman again has raised more concerns in regards to what's safe and what's not with her.Here’s a thought: You are not going to die because you are HIV positive; you are going to die because you were born. Or will you scurry from one turning wheel to the next, worrying about ARVs losing its potency or being delirious because some German guy got cured of HIV…to die from, what, leukaemia? God knows I went there and sometimes still go chasing down that Bison but are we not just running away from the true lesson by chasing HIV around the block? Why not use these wings Grace has permitted you through awareness of your own mortality to soar with your remaining heartbeats?Why not dive into the humble freedom that comes from making peace with the passing nature of this adventure called life. Part of the few who have been granted an opportunity to experience the inevitability of all life here in a way that can actually benefit other human beings around you instead of feeling sorry for yourself, staring at your blood results?A good diet and exercise is an everyday occurrence in my life.